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The Busiest week @ work is finally done. I am off now til New Years night. I found out that it is much more difficult to stay focused with my weight loss plan than I thought. I did not have a really good week. I am going to start the new day with trying not to think so much about how bad i did, but with how I will move on from this. I am going to to weight watchers with a few girls from work. My S/O did a really good job with dinner yesterday. I was more or less in zombie mode from lack of sleep the past week, 2 hrs  a day @ the most really caught up with me. When I got home from work we did breakfast with my kids, then the gifts, and at 11:30am i decided i needed an hr power nap. I asked them to wake me in an hr, but, God bless them, they let me sleep til I woke up @ 3:30! Dinner was being prepared, and everything appeared to be going rather smoothly without me underfoot! Within moments, my parents called and said they were outside, so we did  the gifts with them, and had dinner. they have been here almost a week and with my work schedule I have not seen them too often, so it was really great to be able to spend some time with mom n dad. This morning Mom and I are headed out for some quality time together, later this evening my sister is coming up to visit Yay! And tomorrow we will do Christmas with my S/O’s daughter and grandkids, since it was the only day she had free.  Then Friday a few friends from work are coming over. Saturday and Sunday so far are up in the air, nothing on the definite schedule yet, but we all know that can and will probably be subject to change. New years eve will be at my brothers, Then it is back to work on Tuesday night.

I found also that even tho i really did not have time to get on here and read, I actually missed getting my daily dose(sometimes more than once a day) of motivation from reading and sharing. and that it really does help alot with staying focused and getting through the tough challenges.

I am getting ready to go to work and wanted to take a few minutes to wish everyone a very Happy Holiday season just in case I do not get the chance to get on here to do so. With juggling work and family, extended family, his, mine, it may be a little rough to find time to get on here, and I just want you all to know how much I appreciate all of the kindness, support, understanding, and caring you have shown me. You are all the best:)

As I expected, I got on the scale today and I did not lose anything. I actually gained 2lbs. I am disappointed. I was prepared for the the fact that I may not lose, but I did not think I would gain anything. Minor set back yes. I have accepted it, now I am dealing with it, or trying to anyway. Am feeling a little bit discouraged? Yes. Am I going to throw up my hands in disgust and say just forget it and go back to my old eating habits? The thought briefly, VERY briefly crossed my mind, I would be lying if I said it didn’t. Move on. Drink more water, back to taking my walk. That is my goal for this week.

Have a great day:)

Monday, 8 days to go until Christmas, my last night off, I am pretty much caught up. I have a few more little things to get and 3 more batches of cookies to bake. I am determined to be done before I start my work week tomorrow night. I work right thru Christmas eve, then I am off until New Years night. Being a manager in retailing overnight has it’s pros and cons especially this week. I find myself saying”ahh this time next week I will be ALMOST off again”. Weird huh? But part of me is looking forward to the craziness and all that this week will bring. The nights will go by fast, they normally do because I am always doing something, but I have a feeling this week will fly by. I am going to continue to take my snack from home, as I know there will be alot of goodies brought in. Heck, I am taking cookies in that I baked for everyone. Being on this shift, we kind of miss the “party” during the day on Christmas Eve. So, we decided to have our own little thing. The one co-worker that I work with, is off Monday night, so we are doing something Sunday night. The other one, I work with on my last night each work week, so next week Monday will be my last night and we are doing something that night. Nothing spectacular, because we will be busy, just a way to celebrate a little. Moderation and being focused will be what I will concentrate on. To borrow the inspiring, motivating words of a Buddy on here, one day at a time. All the planning and good intentions can easily be thrown away in a single instant. I will not or let’s say I will TRY not to beat myself up should I make a poor eating choice. This time of year is full of temptations and we all know it. I think sometimes we are also afraid of it, I know I am. So, I will try and pick myself up and dust myself off, and move on. I know I did not get this way in a day, a week, or even a month. I know it is going to be a struggle, I know I need to make more changes in my habits. I have begun the change. One small step at a time. I am struggling right now with getting weighed tomorrow. I mentioned that before. I know if the scale does not move or goes the other way I will be disappointed. It will be just me and the scale. Will I yell and scream if I do not like what it tells me? Probably. Will I lie to myself and say I don’t know why? No. because I know being sick is not always a guaranteed weight loss. I was not able to take my walk, and even tho I did not eat much those few days, I am afraid that what i did eat(soup, saltines, gatorade,diet gingerale) was loaded with sodium and I might just be retaining some fluid. Oh well, that is my random rant for the day.

Have a wonderful week

The 24 hr bug is on it way out…I hope. thank you everyone for your thoughts and support. I did learn, however, what NOT to do when you are not feeling good. First, do not try to have a rational discussion with the cable company because you are sick and this is the day they have some kind of outage! They really do not care that you are in bed sick, and the one day you actually want the tv on because there is nothing else to drown out the banging from the noisy neighbors next door, which is making your head pound more and when the head pounds, the stomach answers. Second, do not plan on trying to or even attempt to bake. I thought i could, but without details, let’s just say I did not get far. So, back to bed I go, with noisy neighbors, and no TV.  Ahhh music…nice relaxing music on my MP3….the batteries have been mysteriously removed…OK I will try to sit up a bit and boot up the puter and read some posts on Budyslim. NOT!!! No cable = no puter!  Enter the phone that rings….Yes I have a voice mail thingy thru the phone company, but you all know those people that will NOT stop calling even tho the message clearly says WE WILL RETURN YOUR CALL.

Ok now this part is kind of stupid and funny. At 47 years old I have never built a gingerbread house. So, about 2 weeks or so ago I bought the kit, which seemed to be very simple. And it should have been. So at 4am I was sleepless, feeling a little better, so I get it out. It collapsed after I had it all done. I was cussin like a drunking sailor, but now as I look at the pile of fallen walls and roof top, and all the candy, and icing, I think its rather funny. Do I not follow my own advice……do not try to bake???? Ok so I didn’t actually BAKE it. Maybe if it was not 4 am it would have worked???

Thats a bunch of rambling, and hopefully today I can get back on track with my diet plan. I am supposed to weigh in on Tuesday, and I am nervous because even tho I haven’t really eaten  anything much for  a few days, I am scared that the scale will not move or will go the other way. I am going to try and NOT stress too much about it, but we all know that is going to be tough. I am trying to convince myself to stay focused and to move on as today is another brand new day.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!!!!

Well, just when one cannot fit another thing into a busy pre holiday schedule of shopping, baking, working, etc. Life throws you a curve and takes you down. The dreaded stomach virus thing has got a hold on me. It could not have happened on my week on @ work so i can at least call out sick….noooooo it hits me on my week off. Just this  morning about 1. And I am not one to complain(women never are!) But beware…….from one who has a rather high tolerance level……it is wicked. Just comes from out of nowhere, no warning, nothing. That’s it for now, I am going to go back an lie down. TGIF everyone and hope you all have a GREAT week-end!

I feel I accomplished a lot today. I did some shopping for stocking stuffers, bought a bazillion gift bags and some boxes, then got my hair cut, and ended with food shopping. I had to get the things i needed to bake, plus the regular food shopping. Taking everything inside seemed to be endless, I swear I ran into myself in passing! Then came the oh so dreaded chore of putting everything away. I spent a majority of the afternoon sorting, wrapping, bagging, and tagging gifts. I am all caught up now as far as that goes. I baked with my daughter tonight and she was such a big help. We talked about how we used to bake when she was little, and all the things remembers about helping me bake. We did 3 batches of chocolate chips, and I ate only 1 cookie. I am working tomorrow day shift to cover the hrs I lost because I had Sunday off. After we both get done work it’s baking again. So I will be pretty much marathon baking til Monday night. I did not give in to ordering out, or stopping for fast food while I was shopping. I am not perfect, let me make that clear. Yes, I was tempted, and yes i did think about it. It seemed like the logical way to handle a day loaded with non stop running around and everything else. But, I made a nice dinner of chicken, veggies, a salad, and i made stuffing, and only had 1 small scoop, and I did not go back for more!!! It was enough. Oh yes, staying focused was a real challenge today, but I got through it. Oh and to make it an even more interesting day my S/O was home from work sick today! So of course “we” wanted attention, and “we” wanted tea & comfort food, so I played Florence Nightengale too! The good thing is the meds I gave him made him sleep most of the day, so it wasn’t all THAT bad I guess. But why do they absolutely NEED or WANT something at the worst possible times??!! It’s funny now. And I do feel bad that he was not feeling good, but some men are just big babies when they are sick lol. Hope everyone had a great day, and has a wonderful tomorrow!!

I sent a few invites to this site to a few choice people. I just read my messages and discovered that my sister also joined! this is so awesome. She has always been my rock and we have a special sister relationship. There is nothing that I cannot talk to her about. we have always been close, although we do not really get to see each other too often because of our work schedules and all. But we do keep in close contact via email or instant messenger. If we haven’t heard from each other for a few days. we send a just checkin email, just to check in. We think alike in soo many areas that sometimes its scarey lol. Im just si excited that we will be doing this together, and that she joined.

Went shoppoing with my daughter tonight, which is always an adventure.  Almost finished my shopping. Yay!

Hello everyone. I just got in from work a little bit ago, and I weighed in. I earned my first star. I lost 5 lbs since I joined this awesome sight last Tuesday. I also realize that the next few weeks are going to be tough challenges with the holidays. I am baking this week(I’m off). Plus finishing my shopping and wrapping everything. I want to have everything done before I go back to work next week. My parents are coming in for the holidays. I’m excited, even tho I just saw them in Sept. when the came in for my niece’s wedding. Anywho, lots going on. Hoping to stay focused and aware of what goes into my mouth. Thanks again for the support and encouragement. Have a wonderful day:)

Went to the holiday party yesterday and I made it! I was a little stressed about the whole thing cuz it was his side of the family and there are certain ones that kind of make me feel……how do i put this…..like i am beneath them dont get me wrong its not everyone…just certain ones and I can sense bad attitude and tension from miles away. In fact, I was kind of silently hoping that I could not get off from work. SSSHHHHH(thats confidential) I love the whole holiday season, and the sometimes stressful hussle and bussle, but just the whole season. and usually when placed in situation, I just keep filling my mouth with food, so i dont have to deal with the tension that gets shot toward me.  I did not just sit there like i was there because i had to be, i mingled and talked to people and caught up. I did not even have a drink, other than a glass of diet soda, and although all the food looked very appetizing and there was alot of food, and snacks, and desserts, I was smart!   I am sure most people can identify with the unintentional attempts to sabotage us! I did not mention that I am really on a mission this time, so everyone was saying try this…eat that…it’s the holidays…..etc.  I had taken a nap before we went(I worked sat into sunday), and I ate before we left. One small step. I was not supposed to get on the scale til tomorrow’s 1 week weigh in but i gave in to temptation this morning and got on. I am down 3 lbs. I had lost 5 before I found this sight.  Today, i am going to start with my walking. Here’s to hoping I stay as motivated and focused for the next week. One day, one moment, one hurdle at a time.

On another note, I hopped on here last night and found that I had a few messages…..one being that my boss did join !!!!! Yay!! Have a great Monday everyone!!!!!