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Hello everyone,

I hope this was a good week end for you. I go back tomorrow night for my 7 on and I am already thinking”this time next week I will be almost done again!” But maybe because I have to switch my routine every week, it could be a good thing. I have work week mode and week off mode, as far as my eating and exercise goes. And so far so good(knock wood).

We were out until 6:30PM Saturday with our relator looking at houses. I think we have seen 20+ houses in the last few weeks. We did put in an offer on one, but apparently they wanted more and we will NOT bite off more than we can chew financially. Saturday we did see one that needs a good cleaning and painting inside, and we will have to buy washer,drier , and a fridge, but the 3 we narrowed it down to all needed appliances. So, I called our agent yesterday, and now we play the waiting game. The location is good, the price is right where we can make it work, the taxes are not too bad in comparison with ones we have seen. The ironic part about this house is kind of a funny story. Last year when we decided not to renew our 2 year lease this year, and started looking by driving by to see what was out there, this was one of the first houses that we drove by. And last week it was back on the market.

I did manage to stay pretty much on plan this week-end. It was hard though, with being on the run the entire week-end. The support I get from my S/O is amazing. And it helps that he is doing it too. I hope it continues this way.

Have a great week:)

I went and weighed in at WW this morning, bright and early. I lost 2.4lbs., at first i was disappointed but that feeling left really quick as I reminded myself that a loss is a loss. I also had to stop and rethink….about the other changes that I have been making. My clothes getting looser, I am walking, and trying to stay focused on the final end result, which is not only seeing the numbers drop, but also regaining my self esteem, self confidence, and self worth,which have always been issues for me, as well as working towards a healthy me. I have to keep reminding myself that this journey is not all about numbers. Yes, I have many discussions with myself these days.  I am in this for the long haul. So,  will someone keep slappin me in the head to remind me of the long term benefits????

We are meeting with our real estate agent again today, to see more houses. I cannot wait until this is done, but from what I have heard and read, it has only just begun.

Hope everyone has a super saturday

Good morning and TGIF. Tomorrow is weigh in day at WW. We went out to eat Wednesday night, but I had regular points plus all my bonus weekly points, and I had eaten fairly light the whole day before we went, so I am hoping that I go down. I also walked 40 minutes when we came home, so I guess that is a plus as well. I worked day shift yesterday, and everyone again was sending out for breakfast,but I had eaten before I went in, and I took my lunch so I did not feel the need to get food just for the sake of ordering food. I did not get to take my walk last night:( The stress from the week and loss of sleep over it all, finally caught up with me. I fell asleep and did not wake up until 11PM. No excuse, I know. But I plan on walking this morning to kick start my day of cleaning and organizing and cleaning, and cleaning.

My boss is talking more and more about switching me from overnights to day shift. It figures, I get system to keep me on plan for work week, and now it may be changed. Hopefully not too soon tho because with looking for a house, the only day we can go is on Sunday, because of my S/O’s work schedule and my schedule on work week being so opposite.

Oh, I put on a pair of jeans the other day….now mind you these jeans were a bit tight before. And guess what…..they are not tight anymore and I was able to wear them ALL day!!!!! I have noticed a few other changes as well. My knees are not bothering me as bad as they used to and it seems that I have had less bouts with my back problem. I am not expecting miracles, nor am I saying that I am cured of the knee and back problems. But striving to get healthy can’t hurt. And one thing I do not want is surgery on my back, which my orthopedic doc said will have to be if it get as bad as it was last March.

One again, thank you to everyone who has been sending me messages and support both with my weight loss and my current so called crisis. Your support and words of wisdom mean more than I can ever say.

Have a great day

So, now I am off and I need to adjust my plan to “off week mode”. First, I will try my hardest to stay focused, within points, and getting my water in every day, journal what I eat, and try and stay active. to get the activity in I am going to walk every day. On “work week” I am running around the store all night doing this doing that, so I am active. Plus, last week, after I got all my projects, done and normal jobs, I took a few minutes and walked around the perimeter of the store, doing another task. I am the type of person that just cannot stand still, and the more I have to do to get the night to go by quickly the better. Just as long as it is not doing things that the other managers do not do cause they know I will do it!!!

The other big factor I have to work on is letting go of the current personal situations that developed last week end. I am trying, but each day there is a new twist a new lie and it is hard. I know in my head it is not good to hold onto it and all it causes is a major headache, which I have been having for the past few days, literally. So far I have not turned to food to shove in my mouth as I am thinking.  I jump on here and write, read others’ blogs and even get a few laughs, and some insight. I am having a really hard time. I  used to be able to let things go just allow the pieces to fall where they may. But this time it seems like it is just taking over my head.

Have a Great Day

Did you ever have too many eye openers? When you are convinced that life is good, and you take down that wall of being over skeptical and then in a heart beat everything comes crashing down around you, and just when you think NOTHING else can possibly happen ….it does? I can handle pretty much anything, and without going into the history archives and writing a book which would make War and Peace look like a short story, I will simply say that I have zero tolerance for liars. Especially the chronic habitual ones who will tell one lie, then end up living a lie based life. You hear about it and feel it will never happen in your life, especially not with someone who is , or you THOUGHT was done with that kind of stuff because of all the bad stuff that this kind of life style caused them in the past. So, now all the trust and confidence is gone. How to deal with fixing it is out of my hands. I am definitly with eyes wide open now. The sad part, this person is still telling lies to cover the ones she already has told which have affected so many lives.

Ok, sorry for the ranting, I have managed to stay on plan and focused as things continue to unravel around me. And I have also made a new pledge(Thanks April) to live one moment one day at a time, and when they day is done, look forward to the next day. A funny here…my fantastic S/O has been doing the WW points plan with me and it has been quite interesting. Gotta love seeing point values on almost everything in the cabinets…..the fridge, the freezer, etc

Tonight is my last night YAY!!! Then I am off for 7, well 6 because I am going to go in on Thursday morning.

Hope everyone has a Great week:)

I just got in from work a little bit ago, had my breakfast, and was reading the responses to my last blog. I have to meet my relator in a little while, then try an get some sleep for work tonight. I just had to take a few minutes and thank you for all of your support. Yes, this is a very tough, trying difficult time right now for me, with everything that is going on. It means so much to know that people understand. And know that every single word I read is taken to heart. Thank you Buddies.

Hugs to everyone, have a great Sunday

Today, was a very stressful day for me. But, let me start on a positive note here. I weighed in this morning at WW and I lost 6- 1/4 lbs. I could not stay for the meeting and I was already stressing because of the reasons. In an earlier post I had mentioned that my boss had asked the manager who was to be MY relief this morning to be on time. Well, my boss called me at 6:30 am and told me that the relief manager was coming in early. I was excited. But it was very short lived because it did NOT happen. She was not even on time. Being a manager, I cannot leave until another manager arrives , so I did not get out when I should have, which meant I had to go to a later one. Without boring you to tears, the stress once I got home really has me besides myself. Not only from being angry from what happened in work, but 4 different situations, all at once when I came home. I am still very upset/angry/emotional about the whole day. So much that I cannot go into detail here.

But, I did manage to keep control of my eating. I did not go for comfort food. Was I tempted? I would be lying if I said that I was not. I really was. With everything spiraling out of control, I do feel like something positive did come. I kept control of what I had the power to control….for now at least.

Hope everyone has a wonderful week-end.

I just wanted to share something here that really surprised me. First, I gave in to the temptation of staying off the scale til my official weigh in on Saturday morning. If my scale is correct it says I have lost 5 lbs this week. I was not satisfied that MY scale said that so to be sure tht it is close to right as possible I ran into the kitchen and got a 5lb bag of sugar and stuck it on there and to my amazement , it did weigh the sugar @ 5lbs. Now we shall see what the scale at WW says in 2 days.

I was very stressed about the hrs I work, and sticking to plan. I was afraid to eat during the night(I am @ work when normal people are asleep….but then again, I never claimed to be normal lol) I have been having a yogurt and  4pt meal at work and it is working so far. Then a light breakfast when I come home.

O well, that’s my vent for today

Have a fantastic day:)

I just got home a little while ago, and what a night at work. But I will spare the details. I did pretty good sticking to plan. I had saved 6 points and I took my ww smart ones from home and a yogurt, plus my water. I was soo busy doing everything last night that around 3am i remembered I had to eat something. But all in all it went ok. I am just winding down now, had a light english muffin and a yogurt, did a load of wash, put the dye on my hair emptied the dw and just had to pop on here. This morning when my boss came in I asked her if she would tell my relief for sat am that I MUST be out by 8 if not a few min earlier so I can go right to my weigh in. Problem is, the one who is supposed to relieve me is ALWAYS late!!!! Im not talking 5 min. more like 10-20-sometimes even more. Ahhh the fun of being in management!!!!! NOT!!! Makes me angry cuz I always make sure I get there in plenty of time to do what I have to do to and help whoever is the 2-10 manager get done and get out.

Have a Great day everyone

Yeah, yeah….I do not get on here for a few weeks and all of a sudden I am writing 2 blogs in one day! I just got back from my walk, just me and my mp3 player. I feel really good now, after the 45 minutes I spent with my new sneakers and my music. Sounds silly I know. I am all done my “household chores” for today, well the week actually because of the shift I work, I try and get everything that really doesnt get done every day out of the way.  I even got over my self pic phobia and went thru what recent pics i have and posted one. This is a milestone for me.  Again, alot of it was due to the support from everyone here. I never mentioned my picture phobia, because I was afraid. Of what? I do not really know. Maybe it was poor self esteem, or something along that line.

I am a little anxious about work tonight, and how to make ww  work with and for me when I have to work these overnight hours. But I have a few plans and I am hoping to really stick to them. I have no problem with the week I am off, it is the week I work 7  ten hour shifts in a row that is scary. I have thought about finding a new career, but it took a  of proving myself to get the position I have and with looking for a house and all that I really afford to switch jobs now.

Again, everyone, have a great day!!